Hello world

So I know it’s been a while since I last posted and I was so excited to be like “I’m back, bitches!” But alas I fell into my normal trap of depressing and lack of motivation to actually make more posts.

A quick little update on life-

I honestly forgot where I left off last time but it’s been a wild ride the last few years. In the more immediate past, it’s been work bullshit, friend bullshit, and just a lot of bullshit. I will say at least that over the last few years, my relationship with the sophisti-spouse is alive and well after months of couples therapy and a lot of hard work individually. We have 8 years married and almost 13 years together, which is literally like a third of my life. Like what the fuck?! That’s just insane. I never thought anyone would want to be around me that long and keep choosing me over and over. It was rocky for a good while and definitely had to do some deep digging on what I wanted and what we could be and found it was still worth it to ride it out and work on the relationship. I’m glad that I did.

In the friend realm, that space gets smaller and smaller every day. A lot of bridges have been burned, a lot of narcissistic personalities, and stress that was not worth the time and effort for. Some people are fucking exhausting, and I’m already exhausted as it is.

Mental health has been really up and down. A lot has transpired over the years, which I can get into on another post. Many medication adjustments, therapy, and even a chemical dependency program to try and get my head right, and the work has been paying off, outside of never being able to sleep. Sleep is still bewildering and I can’t get it consistently. It’s some shit right there.

Work has been a hot mess. It’s been nothing but transition for 4 years and nothing ever stays consistent. Doing way too much work for not nearly enough pay, so I’ve been putting feelers out there for jobs that can make more money. Will I resort back to onlyfans? Maybe. It took a toll on my mental health before but I don’t know, I feel more inspired this time and maybe it can do well. I don’t know, we shall see.

Well, this is just a quick summary of my life the last year or two but I promise I’ll get into more detail soon. I’ll try not to forget about this again haha.

Talk soon, sophisticated friends,

A